You Will be Just Fine!

Sweet boy,

There's not much to report, your blood gas has remained stable but not good enough to wean your peep this week. While we were saddened with the lack of progress, we know we are on your time. So when you're feeling well enough we'll make another wean to your cpap settings. You've been a bit more agitated at times. You haven't liked to be held the past couple days, which breaks my heart. I know you are healing and not feeling the best at times, but I just want to pick you up and never let go. I prayed today that God would just reveal the outcome to me. You had a nurse with 40+ years of wisdom. She told me that you are a strong boy and will be just fine! She said she could tell by your big veins you got proper nutrition your short 25 weeks inside. She said when a baby doesn't get the proper, good, nutrition they will be born with itty bitty spider veins. So she could tell momma didn't indulge in cheeseburgers and Coca-Cola! Haha :-) Your nurse today is an amazing woman of God. She travels every six weeks down south to be with her grandchildren and daughter-in-law who are suffering from a terminal illness. She cooks all organic for them which has prolonged their lives! "If God didn't make it, we don't eat it", she said! Such a testimony. I hope you get many more days with her, she truly
cared for you. She has witnessed many miracles in the NICU. Your life is a miracle! She said God has a plan for you. Your life is set to do something amazing for the kingdom! One day we'll experience a moment in your life were we'll say, Yes! Here is the moment God had set for you. She said when that day comes, to remember her! Not many days I leave your side not crying inside and out, but today I was encouraged!

Xoxo,
Mom